I Still Sometimes Feel Broken
What It’s Like to Be TTC After a Miracle Baby I kiss my daughter’s perfectly squishable cheeks as I lay her down for bed. I watch how she curls her legs into her chest and puckers her…
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To the Baby I’m Praying is in My Belly
[On the night before learning our IUI was unsuccessful] Sweet Baby, Even though right now, you are just a wish and prayer, I want you to know that I love you. You are not just a desire—you…
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This One’s For You: To the One in Eight Suffering From the Grief of Infertility
This One’s For You Whose hearts long for babies— Who are parents without children to hold— Who have bodies that don’t work the way they were intended to— This is for you who’ve been told you can’t—…
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Emotional Surplus: Navigating the Many Emotions of Infertility, Foster Care, and Pregnancy
Since we found out I was pregnant in late January, I have been navigating an overwhelming surplus of emotions. Amid wrestling sheer disbelief in what my eyes and body were telling me, I also struggled with an…
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The Time We Were Almost a Family of Three
When Foster Placements Fall Through I am standing in front of a room that I’ve just spent the last day and a half getting ready for a little boy—looking through drawers, digging through the closet, sorting through…
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When Grief Shakes You
This is Infertility Seven years ago, we reconnected. It didn’t take long for us to fall in love. We were so alike that it didn’t take much; we just simply fit together. Three years ago, we were…
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