Mother’s Day Still Brings Me Sorrow

Approaching Mother’s Day After Infertility & Miscarriage I am a mother to a daughter. This fact still brings me shock and awe. There is rarely a moment that the reality of how difficult it was for us to have our daughter isn’t with me. I’ve said praises under my breath for her at all hoursContinue reading “Mother’s Day Still Brings Me Sorrow”

To the Baby I’m Praying is in My Belly

[On the night before learning our IUI was unsuccessful] Sweet Baby, Even though right now, you are just a wish and prayer, I want you to know that I love you. You are not just a desire—you are my deepest wish, and I go to sleep every night repeating prayers that I’ve said over andContinue reading “To the Baby I’m Praying is in My Belly”

The Gift of You

Our sweet baby. God’s precious gift to our world. I will never be deserving of the gift of you.  When I first became pregnant with our daughter, I must have questioned a thousand times what I could have possibly done to deserve her. I fought so much guilt because of it, after having dealt withContinue reading “The Gift of You”